Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Prengg, Prett, Prutt..
There is always that one person that will always have your heart. You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start.
Even though we use to argue, it’s all right. And sometimes when we haven’t seen each other in a while, keep in mine that you'll still be mine.
I fell in love with you when we first met each other.When I see you from time to time it still feels like the first time.. My chicks can see it no matter how I tried to hide.. And even though i tend to get naughty at times, you're the only one in my mind..
I remember the night you first kissed me..
Cause after we kissed, the only thing i can think about is you’re lips..
And I..
Remember the same night, you told me i was the one you wanna spend your life with..
Mi LoPs YoU sOoO MuCh bAbY!
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
1:59 pm
Time keeps ticking and running away
And It’s taking us fast to a brand new free dimension
Too cool to mention well that’s the intention
But some of us too dame blind to see
It’s setting us free
To say goodbye to jealousy
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
1:54 pm
I've forgotten what it feels like to feel normal
To be normal
And I've forgotten what food tastes like
The way it tastes right
The taste buds taste right
Well, I wake up in so much spit and sweat
It is not normal
What is normal?
Well, I go to bed
When I wake up
After cleaning all
All the spit and sweat
Now I'm sh-sh-shakin', sh-shakin'
I tossed and turned all night
Cause I was looking for, for an ending
This was so because I watched all day
The Neverending Story with Atreyu
The next day came but not a beam of light
Because the blinds were shut
shut so tight
Well, I fell out of bed laced in spit and sweat
It made me very cold
Well, I'm supposed to feel better
This nightmare's supposed to end
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
1:12 pm
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Been a while since i blog it in..
Firstly first.. Life been preetie messy for me nowadays..
Feeling lost, confuse, hurt, cared, loved and blessed..
When sometimes i thought life could better, it just collapse again and again..
I try not think about it too much and face everyday as a brand new day..
Sometimes what i feel is just unfair.. But whatever.. I just have to tolerate all this things as a great challenge towards my big ego.. I just want the best for him.. So what if i didn't get all those luxuries, those nice clothes every guy has been buying for their girlfriends.. I'm not materialistic..
Sometimes you just don't have enough faith in me.. Sometimes you think lowly of me and what does that mean to me? I'm your girlfriend.. I do take criticism.. And I've been ignoring all those hardsh words from you in way that it'll teach me to be stronger and a better person for you in the future days ahead..
Those cough syrups i took.. I admit.. was a foolish way to run away from the reality of life.. Helps burn away all my sorrows.. Shivering and sweating in the cold night as you sleep peacefully.. Crying and weeping in the silent night as you laugh to jokes of your friends you're listening.. That ego in me.. It suck..
But what the fuck.. I wanted to see you happy.. Forget what ive lacking of, forget what i've been missing of. The matter is you..
Sigh..
Silence..
Soul seraching..
Soul found..
Next week i'll be celebrating my 10 mths with my boo..
The 9th months was wonderful.. Baby bought me a bouquet of flowers.. Splendid..
I felt so special.. The bear.. everything.. The kiss, The cuddles..
Haiz..
*snap!*
BACK TO REALITY...
Here we go.. Kidman is bragging bout her new lappy.. Hah~! Big deal~! Lanky bitch.. Hahahahaha... Smiling from ear to ear.. sheesh..Yeah yeah.. Action, action..
FeeWeEzwUUuZzUuU...
Miss baby so muchie, muchie.. Munchie, munchie.. Monchie, Monchie..
Everyone is going crazy in this class.. HuuuHUuU..
Projects here, projects there..
Kambeng, Lembu..Monyet, Beruk.. Whatever..
Ngakz~!
Bluekz~*
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
2:45 pm
These words are my own
Threw some chords together, the combination D-E-F
Its who I am, its what I do, and I was gonna lay it down for you
I tried to focus my attention, but I feel so A-D-E
I need some help, some inspiration, but its not coming easily
(bridge)
Tryin to find the magic,
Tryin to write a classic,
Dontcha know, dontcha know, dontcha know?
Wastebin full of paper,
clever rhymes- see ya later
(chorus)
These words are my own, from my heart flow,
I love you, i love you, i love you, i love you,
There's no other way to better say
I love you, i love you
Read some Byron, Shelley and Keates,
recited it over a hip-hop beat
I'm havin trouble sayin what i mean,
with dead poets and a drum machine
You know i had some studio time booked,
but i couldnt find the killer hook,
now you're gonna raise the bar right up,
nothin i write is ever good enough
(repeat chorus twice)
I'm gettin off my stage
the curtains pull away
No ....... to hide behind
My naked soul exposes
woaaaaah
(repeat bridge)
(repeat chorus
I love you I love you, thats all i got to say
cant think of a better way, and thats all i got to say
I love you, is that ok?
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
2:43 pm
Monday, September 20, 2004
Days passed and I've been thru alot.. Had some misunderstanding with Baby and stuff.. Feeling suicidal watever.. I was shivering and sweating like a cold turkey.. No-neng.. Vomit.. And i could do is cry the whole night.. I hated myself and i wanted to die.. Leave school, family everything behind.. But it was all over..
Today i breathe in a new life.. A new found glory when the sun shines on me one day.. spent some time with baby, tho his tight schedule with school work, tests etc.. yeah..
So i changed my layout.. Pretty aye? Haiz.. Dont i just look lovely?? TeeHee *SnOrt*
Haiz..
Theres so much to say.. so many things to do.. but so little time..
At baby's place now and his mum cooked me favourite Red-Hot-Chicks.. Uhhh... YuMmY~!
HuRrHuRr..
eH Ok lah.. its getting late tho.. I wanna say so many things but i dont have time.. I'll just update later orh..
CheeZiO~!
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
7:01 pm
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Its a very tiring day lately.. We danced in school like it was our Party.. Eating pizza and chickens.. Had lotsa beer.. Erkz.. RoOT beerz.. KwaAKwaAkWaA..
Yeah yeah.. Vidah was hyper lately.. VerRy hyper.. Unlike her.. HaaRgH~! Horny BitCh.. She was darn early the otha day.. The effects,.. its terrible.. Went out with the chicks last sunday and hell, did we had fun.. GroOving, we found a better way to party than going WOMAD burning those 20 buckarOoz..
Ate lotsa and lotsa lately.. BUrpz~*
And i'm getting BIgg.. baby wouldn't want that to happen to me but i cant resist food.. Ngakz~* foOd~!Kekeke..Went to WildWildWEt yesterday.. HmMm not much of a fun.. and went to this shop only to see the green sunDress baby bought for me in that shop.. Hmm.. i've worn it first honey~! NyAkz~!
Ate SAtay, kerangs, nasi lemak, pizza, ChicKenz and lotsa more.. UUhh.. TUmmy looks So r0und baybeh,.. kWaakWaakWaa~*
Vidah is all hip-hop till she dont stop and its like a virus spreading out real fast..DOcKiez~.. I'm having this Inter-department netball competition later on.. I'm soOOo..nervous..PrETTy butterflies flying in my tummy..(say it with a cute tone)
Eh, wait.. GOt space or not in there? Kakakaka~~!
WuuuuHHuuu~~!
Dad's going off to Australia this friday for 2 weeks.. Gee.. me gonna miss my DaDa real bad.. and this friday, its me and acit's 9th Month Anniversary..aWwez~*
Which is TOMMORROW!! TeeHee~*
WEeeHuuu~! Me LOps Him SoOo mUch..
Baby, if you are reading this, i wrote this especially for you darl, i squeezed my whole brain juice for this one honey.. and i mean every word i say from the bottom of my deepest soul..
You heard about my past,things i used to do..
The games i used to play and the boys that didnt last..
i know whats on your mind, you think im doin wrong..
Can i say what is real?
That you are the only one for me..
When im not around, do you think of me?
You should know by now, that its gonna take a lot of trust from you and me for us to make it through..
You should know baby, your my angel..
Nothing is gonna make you fall from heaven..
And i just want to love you..
Dont listen to what people say coz they dont know about you and me..
Put it out your mind cause its jealousy and they dont know about we are actually about here..
Lets talk about me being the selfish sometimes..That i always want my cake and eat it on my own(get it baby?) but maybe thats in my past..
But you changed me now.. Your love so real, that i'd be a fool to play around on you..
I want to stay with you always..
Baby, you should know by now that..
You blinded me with your light and its such a beautiful sight.. the way you move just captivates me every single moment..
You got me walking on air.. Your eyes show rays of hope that hypnotise..
They're a blessing in disguise, lightning up my life..
There will be no compromise, now that I have realised what you really mean to me..
You brought heaven to me just like a symphony.. The way you talk smoothes like music to my ears, a language out of this world..
I'm not a superstitious mind, not the spiritual kind.. But you became a revalation to me.. you made me believe..
You are the sun that makes the rainbow, the blue sky when it's cloudy in my mind..
I Love You..
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
2:50 pm
