Monday, July 26, 2004
Oi~~! Where's my song?!
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
1:39 pm
Raunchy sweet-honeyD melting Adventure~~*
It was a road to remember...We set out at "THE OL' FORBIDDEN PLACE"...
Walk thru all corners of the Sinful place and all the way to Kallang..Yeah... Aljunied and Kallang obviously isn't that far.. But our journey doesnt ends there..After reaching Kallang River, we walk our way thru the long path and there we are.. We saw the lights.. Felt the cool breeze ESPLANADE.. It was an unexpected, unplanned, unprepared trip..
Me in my skirt and my Diesel shoes.. Acitz with his Guess shirt and pants.. walk our way from Aljunied to Kallang to Esplanade.. It was a long trip but we still managed our way.. and it took approximately..an hour or so..
Saw the mysterious-vulgar shouting-finger pointing stranger in a white car..
We were taken aback... But wat the hell~~!
Had two stop in between to ease that tired leg.. First had a stop at Kallang...
Second stop at Esplanade..We sat and talk for hours... From Politicians, Wonders of the world, History, Scientific, Geography all the way to AKHIRAT..
Yeah.. it sounds weird.. To have a boyfriend and Girlfriend sharing these kinda things together.. but we talked alot and shared alot of informations...
It was like the first and the last trip..
A trip to venture..
Went to Aunt's place at Yishun last Saturday.. and my mouth can't stop chewing..
Had Bonestick.. and it was super delicious.. I lost count for how many times i actually ate.. Slurping and slurping.. Last night.. It was a magnificient night.. My friend was all looking so beautiful.. Tho she kept shouting and scolding while she was in her engagemnet dress.. Erkz~~*
Went to a new place last night with Acit.. The wind was blowing strong at my face.. Tho it was a pretty hot day.. But last night.. I feel as if I'm at the peak of a mountain.. We sorta reckon we saw Suntec City tho.. Hahaha..
And saw the star.. The only star shining above our head..
I feel so blessed.. Kinda.. HurrHurr~~*
Saw Helmi and Razzeq on their way to La Salle.. and we talked.. It nice to see old mates and share some lack infos.. Haqz~~*
Looks like all of us share the same fate in our O'levels result ay?
Peace~~*
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
12:50 pm
Friday, July 23, 2004
Annoyance~~!
Its making me mad.. The longer i'm in this school, the more annoyed i'll be..
I mean.. Okay.. I am here.. There's absolute silence in the room.. was about to enjoy the peaceful surronding when these idiotic girls stepp in and started scolding vulgars at each other.. running around and jumping up & down.. What the hell?!
Okay.. So they settled down right infront of me..Yeah.. I'm cool with it..
Then they started turning on this malay song and singing aloud together... Oh Gawd~!
Someone please help me in here.. I'm longing for peace and quiet.. Someone please tell them to shut up..It really annoys me to hell.. Now earwax stating to ooze out of my ears... Oh jeez~~
So i challenge them to the greatest song your ears had ever heard of.. Walah~!
(No!! NOt my blog song of coz..Some other songs that'll pop your ears out!!)
And now they're gone.. Volah~~! I've won.. WEEE~~!
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Peace...Finally.
So Anna tot me and Acit broken up.. Geez.. Is this the kinda wishes i got from an old fren whose lost?Wat ever was she thinking? To hell with that...
I've got better stories to tell.. It seems like a usual thing going to school all alone.. Oh yea...
Mel's been M.I.A due to erm.. what.. tiredness? Kidman? Now you see her,Now you don't..
She's like chipsmore cookies.. HurrHurr...
So i spent my time in class.. studying with Neng? Oh yea.. Sound weird but yea..Neng..
CaiXin seems so extra caring to me nowadays.. or does she gave the same treatment to everyone in class and i'm the one who assumed i was the special one?? So yeah.. yesterday.. believe or not.. she actually wanted to print me our class time table.. i mean not just any class time table.. but a new, retyped and arranged neatly time-table.. and she had one for me.. awww~~* isnt she sweet.. how thoughtful.. but weird.. looking at her talking kinda like made my hair stands.. she's creeping me out.. think Kidman would agree with me on that.. And last week Nadiah talked to me.. i was so surprised.. Tho it was nice of her to acknowledgement.. really appreciate that.. but i feel really weird.. with new students and all.. Ifah smiled alot to me.. hahaha...I now that means nothing.. but okay.. I'm just thinking too much.. Gee..
And also sorry to u guys reading this and if i ever mentioned your name and had a lil bit criticism for you to handle in here.. Bwahaha~!
OKay..so yeah..
Hah~! it's already the few last week of the month.. i still can't believe how time just fly pass me like that...
School been all trashed up with projects here and there.. and still i'm taking things so easy..
Life may be so boring yet so lively at the same time..
So i wonder..
about nothing
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Okay.. wondering wat clothes to wear later on.. Hehehe.. or maybe wat to wear for my girl's engagement day.. i wanna look great..(I've always been looking great) HurrHurr~~* maybe if i could get everyone's attention and make them wonder whose the bride... Hahahaha... Glam is just the style.. HUrrhurr..
Nah.. obviously its nothing like that... Those Kebaya and KUrong and just stuffing in that closet oof mine... screaming to get out.. but yet still i'll be wearing the same usual ones.. Yeah.. i do practice favourism for my clothes.. Gotta wreck the whole closet down and give away 'some' unused ones.. I wouldnt dare say 'some'.. it should be ALL.. Hahahaha...
I went to school and noticed these two girls from my school walking just ahead of me..
They are like how should i say, short and fat.. Bwahahahah~!
Ya Ya.... they're way shorter then i am.. Tho I'm not that really short..
I was just studying them from the back..
Dress Code? You wouldn't wanna know... Hahahaha.... They look so much like a primary six student... Tee Heee...
I dare to say..I've seen better Primary Six girls out there.. who dress more daringly than i did...
Haiz~~!.. Girls these days.. No offence to those two girls tho.. it was just a study.
Silence..
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(Clearing up my mind..)
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My sis Cuzz... the one staying near me.. Or shud i say.. The Kakak-kakak one... tee hee hee..
She's one girl who's getting on my nerves these days.. And her mum.. Always giving all my other family members problems..
Well it doesnt bothers anyone with what i wear out there... Why shud it bother you? To hell with however i wanna dress.. It just doesnt concerns you.. You think your daughter is way better than i am? Ok so i admit she's prettier than me.. What else does she has? How about a decent cert? OKay so i admit i didnt do that well for my O'levels.. But at least it was an O'lvels cert.. People Rise and fall from success.. maybe i fell then.. but i'm rising slowly back up.. So what if i always came home late on weekends.. Mama didnt say anything that i cant'.. Tho i know my curfew is to get back by 4am.. Well you cant simply expect me to be out there from dawn till dusk right? I get tired too..I'm a human too.. Wats there to be jealous about in my family?
Whats there to win about me? I aint dat better anyway.. I'm not dat good, that glam, that rich.. Tho your family is doing way better than mine is..
We had problems to.. Way serious shit than what you think is liek from the surface.. at times we're handling the matter good.. at times not..
It just made my heart sinks to the bottom..
(FlashBack)
What is in my mum's heart.. I could never understand what she's suffering from.. my dad? me? my bros?
I still remember how bitter it was to know that my mum actually neglected me.. I had to find my own food.. Wash my own clothes, fold my own clothes.. It hurts to see that all your family members clothes are folded nicely and neatly but yours are dumped at the corner of the balcony..Okay.. So i did bring it upon my self all the time.. I was sorry.. And i know time and time again my mum gave me that chance for me to prove myself but i've been letting her down..
Quietly she cries..In her room.. I peeped.. I feel her pain.. I understand how a woman feels.. But a mum's heart that was broken, to see your mum cry behind your back, it really stabs you hard..
Her beautiful smile was gone.. i tried to look for it and try to mend things back just the way it use to be..
One Sweet day...
I can see her smiling everyday.. Especially when Acit drop by my place.. I've never seen her put that magnificent smile ever before.. I was so pleased whenever Acit's around me.. coz then i see her happy..Her Jokes, her laughs, her care..its everywhere.. It just made her forget about the problems.. The problems i wouldnt wanna return to...
Those hardship she faced.. And her advice to me on love... She said..
"Until your heart is broken by someone you really love,then you would understand how i feel deep down inside.."
I kept quiet..pretending not to understand..
How could this be?It happened since i was in Primary 6.. but i got to know about it when i was in Sec 2.. When i'm old enouf and matured enouf to think about for my own good.. my mum' brothers came by one night.. talking to a man i dont recognize..
My dad's siblings were there too.. then they went away.. to a place. i heard it was my grandfathers's place...My uncle told me once right before he came in my house.. I'm a big girl now that i'm 14.. i have heart to feel and a brain to think.. If ever i feel theres something i wanna voiced out.. just come to him.. he told me my cousins are there fer me to find comfort.. I acted stupid again..and smiled.. I cried.. I feel pain.. I heard stories of children who came from a broken family..i had friends who came from broken family too.. but i've never thought i would be one of them.. From that night after.. We suffer.. as a family.. Mum and dad kept on quarelling day after day.. night after night..thats when i kept failing for my exams..
My brothers are still young.. they wouldn't understand.. She pitied my brothers too much.. she stayed on with my dad.. standing strong on her ground as a wife and a mum..
And i was giving her problems.. i was too mad about everything.. everything that happen to my family...
Years passed.. everything seems to be going fine.. Until one day.. Acit was at Thailand.. I was all alone with my bros at home.. Mum went out with her friends.. I cleaned the house a little, made tea for everyone.. and she came back... wiith her friends.. with dat look on her face.. that look i thought i'd never see again... mum's friends was comforting her, cooling her down.. Talking bout those past that i never wanted it to return.. Suddenly i felt so lonely.. i felt so crushed.. i thought it was all over.. but it wasnt.. I didnt know who to turn too.. who to share all my sorrows with.. Here i am suffering again... Acit called that evening.. And all i can do is cry when i heard his voice on the line.. I wish he was here to comfort me.. but he was so far away... I didnt wanna tell him what happened.. i didnt wanna worry him about me.. but i was so "--------------"..
We went to K.L few days later.. and everything went back normal again.. i hate this feeling.. This feeling come and go.. It hurts slowly inside...Now.. All that i can do is just wait and see what lies for me ahead...My future...
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
10:05 am
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Holy Hell~~!
Meow..
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
3:01 pm
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
WeEeE WuUu~~**
Miss my Mr. SuperThug....
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
3:15 pm
Monday, July 19, 2004
BUyaAh~~!
Its been a while since I actually wrote up an entry here.. Aite then.. Here I am again..
Been spending my week with Acit.. Wats new right?
Last Friday i finally got to see who Ama was.. Erm well.. Okay.. My first impression.. was like erm, That's Ama??
Hehehehe... I'm being mean here but.. Erm.. I expected a more foxy, sexy senyorita.. But something else came.. Hahahahaha...
She doesn't even look 20+.. Haiz.. Tho she had a cool shoe..
Hahahaha.. Yeah went drinking with Acit and Biol.. Finish up that King Robert's which was like a weeks old? Hehehehe..
Yeah we bought it fer something speacial but things just doesnt turn out as we expected the Huts and all.. So.. our alternative plan wasnt really planned out so we were like ...Tooot~~*Tooot~~*
Dead..Our brains just went dead.. We're tired and all...Shhesh..
So yeah.. So Acit went Centro alone.. Hmmm...Okay...
Then we went Johore with mama the next day.. Then at night Acit went Centro with all his peeps.. And ya.. Time & timie again i always didnt bring alonmg Din's disc.. Sheesh..
Week after week i saw.. And time and time again.. i didnt bring along his Disc.. Sorry Mate.. Hehehehe..
So yeah.. Friday night, just spent my time sleeping at home.. and i got to a surprisingly still tired mood of 16 hrs sleep.. HoLy Hell~~*
Yeah yeah.. Hahahahaha... Acit went out partying with his mates again this week.. Oh well. Wats new again right.. He just know how to have fun i guess.. And Saturday, Gee.. Mama dress me up for town.. i look so erm.. Working lady.. Hahahaha... I feel so funny.. I'm so not reay for that yet.. Mayeb once in while will look cool.. Hahahaha.. Just have that image transformation.. Weee~~*
So yeah.. Meeting Farid later to take some pix from him at Bukit Batok..
Here we go again.. Monday.. A fresh new week. and it feels like last monday was like yesterday? Haiz.. How time just flew by that easy...
So we're having Racial Harmony day this Wednesday and a trip to the New Water PLant.. Kwakz~~!
And by weekend, Lina's getting engaged.. Awww... Still remember those days we're having fun together..How she smoked for the first time and cough like a dragon.. How she always keep on changing her boyfriends like she's changing clothes and how she kept confusing us with her status... Geezz.. Those times when she always gives us sweets when we meet up after she finish working at her Children school... hahahaha..Now she's moved on to a more serious stage of life..Haiz..Now she made me feel as tho i'm so old.. I'm hardly 18..
There goes Lina.. Wonder who's next? Fadzilah? Or erm.. Nani? Maybe Ayu..Ahh.. Life is so unpredictable.. Time flies so fast.. And i'm hardly moving anywhere..
Just now mama was babbling on how i should just school while i can coz i aint going nowhere with this cert i'm doing now.. Gee.. School.. Thats another thing.. I just got no more interest... But i wonder where i'll go after i finish ITE... I've always hated doing paperwork behind a wooden desk and having your face covered by a square screen that shines it lights directly at your face making your eyes all squarish... Bleargh~~!
So its a new layout to my blog.. nO... I just change the colour..and pictures.. notice.. hehehehe.. Its like i'm following a theme..the previous one was like more Rocking Dull.. This one is more Blazing Star.. More Hip Hop i should admit.. Hahahaha.. Oh well its just a blog i shud say.. Oh well.. I think i should go now...
Mesmorized by his style..
Could tell he was wild..
But he had a touch of class..
And a million buck smile,Acit..
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
2:12 pm
Friday, July 16, 2004
Look What You've Done~~*
Take my photo off the wall if it just won't sing for you,
'Cause all that's left has gone away and there's nothing there for you to prove,
Oh, look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone,
Oh well, it seemed like such fun until you lose what you had won
Ooh oo
Give me back my point of view 'cause I just can't think for you,
I can hardly hear you say, what should I do? Well you choose
Oh, look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone,
Oh well, it seems like such fun until you lose what you had won,
Oh, look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone,
A fool of everyone
Take my photo of the wall if it just won't sing for you,
'Cause all that's left has gone away and there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone,
Oh well, it seems like such fun until you lose what you had won,
Oh, look what you've done, you've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone,
A fool of everyone
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
2:30 pm
Thursday, July 08, 2004
I'll Be~~*
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And I've dropped out, I've burned up
I fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on
Remembered the things that you said
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your life
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
1:33 pm
Monday, July 05, 2004
Guess Who's Back..
Uhhh Yeah... BiBIkz is in da HOuse.. Ah ha.. Ah ha..
Gwak~~
Ya..ya.. MIA lah.. this lah, dat lah...
Sorie.. My internet's down at home.. And its my fault.. KwAk~~!
Been going for Hols this Hols.. Duh~!
Went Batam, K.L and simply lazing around at home.. Spending my time with some old frens and always.. my baby.. Hehehe
Wat's new anyway..
Had a boring time at Batam tho.. Gee, it just bore to death...
Wat a lousy decision to make to actually follow my dad.. But... bought this sweet pink tube dress which looks kinda like erM.. Tho's dresses Dirty Dancing latinos laydees wore? Ohhh yeah... That's it.. Well.. still dunno when i'm gonna wear it tho.. maybe for a special occasion with that special someone? *Winkz*
A trip to K.L was much better.. Went Sunway Lagoon, Genting Highlands and not forgetting Time Square.. Yep..
I tried that new roller coaster in that shopping mall.. and it was great... HAD A BLAST..*bOOM*
Yeah.. tho i'm having fun.. was missing Acit real bad tho.. he's away to thailand.. with Scootch.. Ahhh... wonder hjow he'd look like.. Gwak~~!
Just recently, went to spent a night with Acit to mark our 7th month.. well, it doesnt went as we planned, but...it's great to spent that moment with him.. Happy Anniversary Sugar DarL..
Had a Family Dinner Saturday night..Met some old cousins and boy, do people change..
There's so many things to say.. so many things to share..
Got lotsa new pix up too.. yeah..
So now, since my uinterbet's down.. i'd be just depending on Acit to check out my tag if he's kind enough to tho.. and also be like Mel.. depend on school.. Gee weez...
Yeah.. Niwae.. miss everyone out there too.. Today.. first day of school.. As usual, newbies came.. Time to check out those peeps..
Hahahaha...
Some bad things happen tho.. and i couldnt get my mind to run with ease.. I was sad, i was mad..I was HURT..
Baby..
If theres something i would ever wanna ask from you.. Is that those "things" just have to go.. U noe wat i mean.. U noe wat it is.. I didnt like it since the beginning and i tried to understanD ur lifestyle with those things part of ur life.. But..
It has come to that time when somethings has to be let go..its been months since the last time u took those things, why now?
I really care for you.. and love you right from the bottom of my heart..I'll be the happiest girl if u could just let go of that part in your life now - now that u have me..
Its a new life to lead..
Baby.. Do it cause u love me...do it for ur own good..
Please...
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
10:40 am
If I Ain't Got You~~*
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what’s within
And I been there before but that’s life’s a bore, so full of the superficial
Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah
Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need 3 dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me
Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, you, you
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah
If aint got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby.
x My unthoughtful thoughts at
10:05 am
